Holly Madison explained that after removing herself from Hugh Hefner’s life years before his death, she didn’t feel the need to publicly mourn the Playboy founder when he died.
“When he passed away, everyone was expecting me to have a big reaction or post about it on social media, and it was just weird,” the former Playmate said. Playboy. told people in an interview published on Saturday.
“I no longer had any emotional attachment to him.”
“I had previously spoken about what a toxic relationship this was for me,” she told the outlet. “Why am I supposed to post a memorial on my Instagram? »
THE Girls Next Door The star, 43, has spoken at length about her “traumatic” experience with the disgraced millionaire, detailing years of sexual misconduct and abuse in various books and interviews.
Madison, who dated Hefner from 2001 to 2008, first opened up about the relationship in her 2015 book. Down the rabbit holeaccusing Hefner of various forms of emotional and sexual abuse.
Since then, she has spoken more about her time with Hefner, calling the sexual relationship she had with the magazine founder “hell.”
“We saw it as a chore that we had to do or else we would be kicked out of the house. Everyone just wanted this to happen as quickly as possible,” she said in an August 2022 statement. Next Level Girls podcast episode.
“You’re literally sitting naked having sex in front of a group of people who hate you and talk about you while you’re having sex – and you can hear it. It was like hell.
Madison – who severed her ties to the Playboy Mansion in 2008 – further told the outlet that she felt no “relief” upon learning of his death in September 2017 at the age of 91.
“…I felt like I had kind of removed myself from that universe pretty solidly,” Madison explained. “But it was a really strange time.”
“Before he passed away, it had been maybe five or six years since I had spoken to him at all. He had become a completely different character in my mind.
Although years have passed since Madison released her tell-all memoir about what happened in the Playboy mansion, the reality star told People that she still faced criticism for speaking out.
“There are still people who want to attack me for speaking my truth, even though it has nothing to do with them. Just because when you come from the mansion, it’s kind of this high-stakes environment where people attach who they are to this title of playmate or association with Playboy, so they never want to hear a bad word. about it,” she said.
Other Playmates and people familiar with Hefner have since come forward detailing the horrific acts that took place inside the confines of the Playboy mansion.
Former Playboy Bunny mother PJ Masten recalled a time when Hefner even forced a woman to perform oral sex on a dog.
“All the guys were laughing when Linda got out of the limo,” Masten said in the documentary. The Secrets of Playboy released earlier this year.
“She was drunk and drugged… They upset her so much that they forced her to perform oral sex on the German shepherd. You want to talk about depravity? It’s despicable.
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